lawyers and doctors

i just finished watching tonight's gray's anatomy. and now i'm watching ER, a show i haven't seen in years. it used to be my favorite show back when i wanted to be a doctor. i've wanted to be a doctor since before i can remember. how i ended up being lawyer who knows. all i know is that somewhere between the time i started watching ER in 7th grade and the time i stopped in college i quit wanting to be a doctor. i told myself that it was not what i wanted. but who knows what you want. you shouldn't do things you want to do. when i do what i want to do i end up procrastinating and not doing the things i should be doing. now i'm a lawyer. it's a nice career. it sounds nice out loud, "I'm a lawyer." whether it's better than being a doctor, i don't know. all i know is that i am a lawyer and not a doctor. and i suppose i will never know. i sometimes wonder if i knew then what i know now about what it means to be a lawyer versus a doctor, would i still have chosen the path i did? it's like the movie sliding doors. i missed the first door. and now i sit wondering what might have happened. and who i might have met along the way.